King of Gods and Men.

For the past few days I can't get high without gravitating towards Jupiter. Let me elaborate.

It started while listening to the enchanting music Depeche Mode, shortly after smoking last weekend. It was the Violator album, and the song Halo has been playing in my head since. The lyrics seem to evoke the cycle of karma in the Wheel of Fortune - the perpetual motion machine of the the Universe. 

Led by intuition, I spent hours looking at paintings and sculptures of Zeus, until I stopped at Ingres' painting of Jupiter and Thetis. The truth is, I saw myself reflected in the painting - a god version of myself.

                                                        "Pimping ain't easy" -Zeus

Let's see... he is god of the skies, he hurls bolts of lightning and loves nothing more than to be adored by women. It doesn't take Carl Jung to figure out which Archetype influenced my character of Lucius. Though in the story, the Demiurge is fully embodied in the character of Johvan, and Lucius becomes the prince aspect. 

Here is a painting on a similar theme by Gustave Moreau.

I also fixed the texture of Lucius' hair to resemble that of Classical Greek sculptures, long and curly. Initially, I didn't want him to have hair like my own. Here is a prime example. 

I started asking why the sudden fascination with this god, what it means in my life. So I dug into my natal chart to find that I was born with Jupiter in Virgo. I've read the top articles the internet had to offer. I finally linked this article to Lisa who read it as a reflection of me, and also as a warning. Yeah, I saw it as such too. It explains my self-defeating perfectionism, my hunger for knowledge, and my preoccupation with intellectual trivialities. On the other hand, I there is a lot of good I can channel from this. I will not settle for mediocrity at anything I do. I see the need for practical experience in my magickal practice, over mere research. Meditating on this has helped me understand my aim in regards to initiation with the O.T.O.

This is a big step for me. Knowing my own motives for initiation is part of initiation. I have to keep in mind that my dealing with the others is part of my inward journey. 

I feel like I'm just now learning to appreciate the esoteric science behind astrology. Once I have the ritual of the pentagram down, I can begin to make sense of the planetary forces in the ritual of the Hexagram. Through it, I can invoke the gods in my daily life.

I had an epiphany while outside, smoking and on a meditative state. This whole thing is about me making peace with, and integrating the Father archetype within myself. A new formula of the Aeon of the Child is that the Son redeems the Father, by assimilating both, Father and Mother into a new synthesis. It's part of the Great Work. I've been at odds with the Patriarch within me because of my years with Jehovah's Witnesses. My interest in the OTO is to redeem the Father within myself - perhaps connected with my birth as a Hierophant. The Gnostic Mass should be instrumental in appreciating this. May explain my aspiration to be as a Bodhisattva.