Long time since an update eh?
One thing at a time, I suppose.
First, this very moment.
After reading a preview for James Wasserman's publication of the Egyptian Book of the Dead on Amazon, I was in contemplation. I don't know exactly how I arrived at it, but I envisioned a sword - The Sword. I held Logos outwards projecting my will to wield the Mind of God for Supernal Truth and Justice. For a brief moment it occurred to me the magnitude of my presumptuousness. If I ever incorporated such a strong emotional projection of the Will into a spell, I would preface it with inflaming prayers of humility. I would have to invoke the Most High as if preparing for an exorcism.
I wish nothing more than to know the Mind of God and act upon it, therein must lie my True Will. Everyday I become more conscious of my oath to understand the whole of the Universe and use such understanding to shower blessings upon the Earth. The constant presence of this ideal had me looking at the Book of the Dead with actual eagerness to master myself in death and become a ruling force among gods. This, of course, with the right view of the life-death cycle. In that moment of inspiration I drew a card from the Thoth deck, the Princess of Swords. My first intuition told me about my dusty brain making a mess of things, then I read what Crowley and Duquette had to say about it. This is the result.
For the mind to become The Logos (Ace
of Swords) - the perfect instrument of truth and justice - you must
first defeat it in combat (Princess of Swords.) Only by transcending
the human mind can a mortal wield the Mind of God.
I keep sharpening my mind by studying solid scientific theories about our universe, the very edge of theoretical physics. I believe that any atheist who looks hard enough into that vast frontier will find that elusive and impersonal "God" that is too big for mainstream religions. Even so I'm still operating within the mind's constraints, this tells me that the most profound illumination will come from overcoming my mind's own limitations. I guess that means hard work - meditation, scrying and such. I think it's this task represents the higher end of the Order of The Rose Cross, almost beyond the HGA. Only when I reach that level will I wield this Excalibur with any real competence.
