I had to write this to get it out of my system without exploding at my friend Chris, who wouldn't even understand half of it. Chris if you read this, take it for what it is. I didn't actually send this to you - yet, but it's how I feel
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Chris,
You know I'm your friend and I'm honest. I usually say what's in my mind and heart, yet lately I've been biting my tongue, hoping you'll sort your problems out before I need to say anything at all. First let me clarify and say that I'm not angry with you. What I really am is tired of your anti-social behavior. I've been putting out your fires for months now in our gaming group and it's really straining me. You don't play well with Ian or Shelby, and now it seems you're adding Lisa to the list. The fact is that you don't play well with anybody. Everyone unanimously agrees that you're an excellent role-player who suffers from some shitty personality disorder. You're prone to some pretty awkward tantrums and situations making everyone else feel uncomfortable. Maybe you just don't care for my DM style, or maybe you're tired and Leah is pissing you off. Either way there's always some way for me to excuse your words and actions and I shouldn't have to do that for someone who doesn't seem to give a shit. I can't make you like or respect any other player, but I can make you aware of how people really feel about your conduct, giving you the opportunity for self-realization. I also hate this kind of veiled resentment, between you and my close friends. I don't want a potentially fun game close to my heart to become a chore thanks to your irrationality.
I know this is hard for you to understand because you can't fathom anyone’s perspective other than your own. You resort to phrases like “I'm just a fuck up” without any empathy for the effect you actually have on people – It's still all about you. In fact, you might just think “everyone hates me” and not even bother to understand yourself better. Maybe this is very hard for you to take because everyone is used to walking in eggshells around you.
I'm telling you this because I'd rather lay the cards on the table so everyone knows what's what. Life is too short for this kind of bullshit. You've been pushing your closest friends away because you don't think you deserve them. You showed up at the house, apologized to me and Irv who weren't even involved and didn't bother to call Lisa (even after I suggested it) Let me settle this strange psycho-self-sabotage for you. Douche-bag Chris doesn't deserve friends, so don't be a douche-bag and you'll be alright.
